“I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.”—Elizabeth Gilbert- Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman’s Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia (via quote-book)
Funny, I still have his cousins on facebook, even though I told myself I would cut my ties with him any way possible. His cousin’s pictures popped up on my homepage and I started creeping around. I saw you in picture of their trips all over. I’m happy he’s treating you right. I texted my bestfriend right when I saw them and she said “At least now he can be a normal bf without cheating on her”. Now I feel like it’s all my fault why that all happened to the three of us. If I didn’t meet him, you could have had this a long time ago. If I didn’t become his friend you wouldn’t have to cry over him for two years. If I didn’t go out with him, maybe you two would even be married by now. Leaving him was one of the best decisions I’ve made in my life, and I guess you staying was one of the best of yours. I’m glad he’s treating you right, and I’m sorry for being that girl who happened to be the reason why he did that to you. Honestly, I had no idea, and I know that’s no excuse. I just want you to know I’m sorry. Maybe this apology won’t get to you… maybe it will. I don’t know if you’ll hate me forever, I don’t know if you’ll forgive me. But just know, I didn’t mean to hurt you. I didn’t mean to ruin that important aspect of your life. Trust me, he fooled both you and I. Anyways, goodluck with the rest of your life, and goodluck with his. I hope he treats you like a princess.
“The greatest feeling in the world is to be around someone who wants to hold you, wants to kiss your forehead, wants to be around you, wants to call you at night, & wants to see you smile. But I think what’s better than that, is finding someone that does it all, because he wants to see you happy.”—(via poeticheartache) (via daanasaur)
i just wanna vent out how pissed i am about my phone. it’s broken. well, i don’t know what the shit is wrong with it. i can get texts, my alarm clock works, i can even get phone calls.. i just won’t be able to do anything with it. because my keypad won’t let me press any buttons. fail.
“if you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
i’ll sail the world to find you
if you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can’t see
i’ll be the light to guide you”—Count on Me - Bruno Mars
since i start summer school in 2 days, i obviously wanted to end the last days of my doing-nothing portion of summer with a blast. here’s a thanks to all the people who made it possible.
To my cousin, thanks for coming to visit for Canada Day. I know I’ve been promising to come visit for the longest time, but I will! Right when I’m done school, I will look into visiting you right before I dive back into the books. Thanks for lending me your dress (I saw it in my closet when I cleaned it out today, VERY CUTE! i’m prolly gonna wear it soon haha). Thanks for making me buy that bathing suit, I love it! Thanks for lending me your books also. I don’t know if I’ll have time to read all (I probably won’t, but I’ll still try). And also, you forgot that one book I wanted to lend to you. HAHA! I’ll see you in a month!
To Angela, thanks for flying Tricia to Ottawa, and coming to visit. It was so nice to be able to hang out with you for more than just a couple hours like we usually do when we visit Mississauga. It was nice being able to talk to you about other stuff too :) You should come visit us more often since you can anyways, for free! :) I’ll see you soon, please and thank you.
To my bff, thanks for spending a chunk of your Canada Day with me, and not minding three wheeling the rest of the night. Haha. I love getting drunk with you, and I love feeding you cuz you eat so much! Thanks for bringing me some hard liquor cuz all I had was beer. I’m looking forward to seeing you more often @ school, but I kinda wish I didn’t, not because I don’t want to see you (of course I do) but it’s because I don’t wanna go to summer school. OH oh, and we get to go to the gym soon :) I’ll see you this week :)
To the bf, thank you for spending lots of time with me for the past two months. I’ve enjoyed every single second of it. Thanks for watching the fireworks with me and I’m happy I got to see you on Canada Day despite the crowd and shitty cel service. Same goes for Calypso also. The past 2 months have been amazing and I promise I’ll still make time for you! We still have to watch theOC, and watch more Disney movies. Thanks for hanging out with my friends too, and my siblings. You’ve been nothing but great.
To my dad, thanks for having all that patience, driving us to montreal and back, calypso and back. And to my mom also, who did a lot of cooking and cleaning up for everyone when tricia and angela came to visit. You guys have been awesome letting me do whatever the hell I want this summer (well, almost everything). HAHA!
To the sibs, I’ll still hang out with you guys. I’ll see you in the morning. looool
…. So yeah, I’m legit bummed out, but I hope nothing much changes even though I start summer school. My grandparents and cousin and uncle are visiting this week for a week or so, plus I have summer school, and I have to work, and make sure I spend time with the bf also. It’s quite a bit to juggle on my plate, but it should be fun. I need to spend less time on the computer and more time surrounded by people anyways. Wish me luck on summer school guys. =s